The more new writers I get the better it will be for me.
Reading quotes, comments, and my efforts to take a difficult path and to turn it into a gentle journey.
by tex norman
Publisher: Wild Hare Press
Copyright: © 2009 tex norman Standard Copyright License
Country: United States
Paperback book $4.84
Printed: 156 pages, 5.5" x 8.5", perfect binding, white interior paper (50# weight), black and white interior ink, white exterior paper (100# weight), full-color exterior ink
After a car accident the author spent three months caring for his wife as she healed from her injuries, and in his down time he wrote essays. Hundreds of essays were written, most published on a writer website called Searchwarp. This is a selection from those essays dealing with depression.
Teaching My Son To Ride a Bike by
It is an iconic act, this image, this memory,
of what one thinks is remembered,
this duty, this privilege of being a father.
Teaching a child to ride a bike is so
common, so shared, so symbolic an act
that it is used in television commercials as
an parental logo, as a representation of
parenting. There are millions of parenting
acts epitomized by this one, so if I fail at
this one thing, I fear I will have failed as
a dad. And I did fail. I tried, of course.
I remember running beside him, my hand
gripping the seat of his bike, my mind
ready to brace him, to add balance where
it was needed, or to catch him should he
begin to fall, and all the while I’m feeling
his fear. He knew what was expected.
He was supposed to trust me and I could
see he was trying to trust me, but trust is
earned and I was in default. I was in
paternal recession, a dad depression, my
stock had fallen for more than two
consecutive quarters. He couldn’t find his
balance while trying to balance my
presence in his life. I left him in an empty,
slopping parking lot where he used
the gravity of this earth sensing somehow
that speed equals distance divided by time,
and all the while he added balance his life.
My son learned balance by himself,
alone, all alone, all on his own.